I'm so confused and messed-up. I don't wish to go for council camp because it suck big time 100% but i hate to leave feng ling alone. EX-CO'S have to do powerpoint presentation. I feel sad for her. I feel like going out but i want to stay at home. I don't like myself. My head is spinning. FUCK FUCK FUCK! i love soccer.i've become one sleepy-head. I hate myself. i dunno what to do withmy life. I'M LOST.really.