Square One

It's funny how my teacher seemed to remember I need to lengthen my school's skirt after so long.
Imagine a 19 year old, as of next year is reminded to lengthen her skirt.
My teacher is really a person who follows " law-by-law"
But I want to be a law breaker, so not going to lengthen my skirt.
Besides it will only, HOPEFULLY,be for a few months.
A new beginning, I shall embrace it.
I'm more alive after Li Yun's text message me.
And Zach just managed to make me feel guilty, which makes me feel so urggh!
I can't even describe the feeling for not attending so many class outings.
I swear I have something more important to attend instead of the outings like 70% of the time.
So you tell me who is at fault?
Regardless, everything happened for a reason.
Hopefully, new year's dinner is on. Or else, I 'll just have to slaughter Darian & Zach for killing my last chance of reconciliation.
Well, I've been out like every single day.
Which made me feel guilty also because mum is usually left alone.
I am supposed to go Zouk today but I canceled it because I didn't feel like good to go out with like few bucks in my wallet and my body system is damn cocked up.
I'm all jaded but awake.
How bizarre can I get?!
I feel guilty, because I left Poovan all alone.
What's with me and guilt today?
I need to make up to everyone whom I have disappoint.

Anyway, my expectation of someone just went flop!
I spent like two days crazily convincing myself that, since we are nothing but "just friends" whom I supposed happened to feel for each other, I should not pin any hope.
Like I once used to say at the end of the day, if he happens to fall for someone else, I'll be nothing and just that friend he once knew.
Anyway, he's all tired, I understand and he did say sorry.
Apology accepted and 0 expectation left until miracle happens!